Self-Portrait Tuesday: Personal History, Week 5
"Paper Trail" (clickable if you want to see it larger in a new window)
SPT, Personal History, Week 5
"Paper Trail" (clickable if you want to see it larger in a new window)
SPT, Personal History, Week 5
"Tracks from the Past"
I originally thought I would do something fabric-y based on this photo and I still might. (If I do, I'll post another photo when it's finished.) But in the meantime, the month was running out and I didn't want to feel like I had to rush the fabric piece, so I decided to do a drawing instead. I had, after all, mentioned wanting to post another drawing anyway, and this way I could kill two stones with one bird (Har!). So here ya go:
"Rock Faces" graphite and colored pencil on paper
February's SSL challenge should be fun. The theme is RED!!
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"Dreaming Water"
"Rusty Pipes"
What the ... ?
I went to town yesterday. As I was wandering through a major discount chain store, (which shall remain nameless because I don't approve of them and I always feel guilty shopping there, but I don't really have choices coming out my ass here in Middle-of-Nowheresville so I stomp on my guilt until it's squished flat and then lock it away in a little tin box and go anyway), I just happened to walk casually past the shoe department. Yes, that's right, I said walk casually. I didn't go there on purpose. Sheesh. Who do you think I am?? Oh. Ok, never mind.
Anyway, I had to do a bit of a double take when I saw an entire aisle lined with flip-flops.
Yep. Flip-flops. January. Kentucky. Okaaaayyyy. Admittedly it's been an unseasonably warm January so far, but winter is far from over. And even unseasonably warm usually means accessories more like this:
(I'm featuring that one for Deborah. I figure she'll like the color scheme. I have no idea what caused the weird shadow. It might have been my head.)
Even Riley thinks it's cold enough to justify a fur coat:
(gratuitous cute dog shot, inspired by Gerrie)
Maybe they're merchandising toward those who are planning vacation get-aways someplace warm. In that case I don't think they're stupid, I just think they're hateful for reminding me that I can't do that this year. Hmph.
And dare I admit I was really tempted by a pair of slides?
They're peach-pink suede slides ferpetessake! I don't even wear that color. And those flowery things on the toes are just odd. But they represent the return of the sun. (They DO! Go with me on this one!) They represent hope. They represent how much I already want spring to arrive and it's not even the end of January and the winter has been very mild. Which means they may, just may represent a teensy sprinkling of seasonal madness lurking in my brain. Ahem.
Speaking of Dog Shots
(geeze, that sounds vaguely, well, BAD, doesn't it??)
This is another photo of Riley that I played with to make it more abstract.
"Riley in Shades of Gray and Tan"
It is, as you've probably guessed, my Art of the Day post.
"Grove III: Winter Glyph" (17" x 15")
piecing and raw-edge applique, some fused, some not
Here's a detail shot:
"Grove III..." detail
I kind of love how this turned out, so if you totally hate it, don't even tell me because it'd be like telling a new momma that she has an ugly baby. Heh.
The colors are SO not my usual thing, but still...did I mention I love it? I have an idea for something else I want to work on in similar colors. Maybe even a couple of "something elses".
Inspiration to work in fabric in January? ME? Ms. "Hibernate-'til-Spring"?? Be still my heart. Next thing you know I'll start liking snow. Naaaahhhhh....
PS: If you want to see pics of "Grove" and "Grove II", you'll find them here.
PPS: Happy Birthday Dara!! Hope you have a truly wonderful day!!!
"Ray of Sunshine 1", 6" x 4"
It's just a little fabric postcard (one of a small series I finished yesterday) but it's Fabric! It's STITCHED, dammit!
I have a non-postcard fabric something put together that I'm planning to start quilting today. Depending on how far I get, I *may* have photos to share tomorrow or Friday.
3. Take a look at what I saw from the back deck yesterday morning:
"Fairy Frost"
It looks like snow, doesn't it? But no, just an extremely heavy frost. I thought it was pretty.
Here's another view looking toward the barn:
"Frosty Barn"
The sunspot in the upper right is a lucky accident, not a filter. Cool, yes?
4. Back to the topic of Self-Portrait Tuesday for a moment, I have no idea what I'm doing next week to finish out January (ok, that's a lie...I have an idea, I just haven't done anything about it yet and if it turns out to be a Crap Idea, I have no OTHER idea), but yesterday Kath posted the theme for February.
"all of me" embrace your mistakes, love the ugly bits.
(whimper)
Hold me. I'm scared.
I'm very, very good at Select-a-vision, y'all. It's what allows me to walk past herds of dustbunnies and teetering stacks of books for weeks at a time without doing anything about them. They aren't important to me at that moment, so I mentally tune them out and simply don't see them! (That drives J nuts, by the way. I know he's convinced that I'm being deliberately annoying when I do that, but really I'm not. I'm being naturally and unconsciously annoying. There's a difference! Heh.)
Select-a-vision is also what allows me to ignore bags under my eyes, a sagging jawline, fat rolls, and much, much more, and choose to still see myself as attractive. And it took me a long, LONG time to get there. I look back on photos of myself when I was younger and thinner and firmer - more attractive by current standards of physical beauty - and I hated the way I looked then. I didn't like myself much at all. It took a lot of years of living for me to understand - TRULY understand, deep inside - that no one is perfect and that the less-than-perfect bits of me - both the physical and non-physical bits - didn't make me worthless. But I admit I did that not by embracing them, but by choosing to no longer see them. I clicked the Select-a-vision button on my mental remote control box and filed them away under "unimportant".
And now Kath wants me to not only consciously LOOK at those sorts of things, but to share them with the world and yet still choose to see myself as attractive...To not merely dismiss the imperfections as unimportant, but to take them in and name them and embrace them and love them?? AAAaaaacccckkkkk!!!! I am horrified. Seriously. I'm freaking out a little bit here in my corner of Kentucky.
And of course I don't HAVE to do it. But if it isn't difficult sometimes, it isn't really a "challenge" right? So. Well. Damn.
I still hate it. I'm still scared. But I'm going to try. (whimper)
We'll see what happens.
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On the left is one of my great-grandmothers, my father's mother's mother, Kizirah Blevins. On the right, obviously, is me.
I don't have enough hair to quite nail the Gibson Girl 'do, but I did the best I could with what I have.
My great-grandma Blevins, who died when I was just a baby, was notoriously camera-shy, so I only have two photos of her - this one (which is actually a photo of a photo!), taken in her early 20's and a family photo taken when she was in her 70's.
I, as regular readers of RSR will know, am in my early 40's. Well, ok, almost mid-40's now. Sheesh! Still, allowing for the difference in our ages, I think the resemblance is pretty striking, yes?
"Spanning the Generations"
"Shining Circles" (clickable if you want to see a larger version in a new window)
This one is taken looking through the Thing from the opposite direction of the previous two photos, late in the afternoon when the sun was starting to get low in the sky but it wasn't yet sunset. I used a filter, obviously. I wanted it to be about line and about light and shadow, not about color.
And speaking of things being about line and light and shadow (smooth, Deb, smoooooth), I sewed yesterday! Yay! And while the segue may not have been very original, it was accurate, because the fabric piece I'm working on is about some of those same things.
(Should I have told you to sit down before I talked about the sewing thing? Oops.)
I'm not ready to share pics yet. There's still a good chance I could fuque* it up today. But if all goes well I should be able to share some photos by mid-week or so. Fingers crossed, stay tuned, and all that rot...
*Fuque: It means exactly what you think it means. But if I spell it "cute" it foils some of the icky search strings. HA!
"Two Purple Beads"
It kind of sucks, although I wouldn't go quite so far as to say it sucks rocks. But the perspective and proportions are all wrong and I'm not entirely happy with the shading. But that's ok. Considering how long it's been since I did much drawing beyond quick-n-dirty quilt plan sketches, I'm bound to be rusty, so I choose to be pleased that it's remotely recognizable. Heh.
Now to practice, practice, practice...
Birthday wishes going out to the superfantastic Sonji! Hope your day is everything you wish for, Sonji!
I'm almost afraid to say this lest I jinx it, but I pulled fabrics yesterday y'all. I have a PLAN. And it involves actual cutting and sewing of fabric. Yikes. Stay tuned...
It's a dead tree that's fallen partly over the path and there's a wild grapevine on it and check out the bizarrely rectangular shape they've made! I took the above photo so that you could get some perspective by seeing J and a couple of the dogs on the path below, but here's a close-up:
"WildWood Frame"
I LOVE the lines of the intersecting branches and vines. They almost look to me like an oriental language character...like the shape should have meaning. This is going in my "quilt ideas" folder.
One of these days I suppose I should actually MAKE something from my quilt ideas folder, yes? Um, yeah.
FWIW, I did TOUCH fabric this week. In fact I did a little cutting, sewing, and fusing, starting what was intended to be a small project. But it's not to be. I hate it. It reeks. It sucks rocks. Loudly. I definitely need a Plan B on this one. Stay tuned.
"Pink"
I wanted to create a still life with a landscape feel, using only pink fabric and thread found in my sewing area.
"Geometry"
This one is looking at it from the same direction as the photo I linked to above but instead of being about looking through the circles, I wanted to show the interesting geometric shapes of the shadow it casts, contrasted with my own more organic (and sort of headless!) shadow.
Also, gotta wish a big happy birthday to Deborah and to Jaye! Hope you each have a wonderful day, preferably one that includes cake!!
On the other hand, when I'm stone-cold-sober and have a brand new haircut, I discover that the computer sees a 64% resemblance to Renee Zellweger. I denied it at first. I said No Way, UnhUNH! I'm not a fan of Ms. Z's look. She has squinty eyes and a weird mouth and chipmunk cheeks. And ok, I own up to the chipmunk cheek thing, but I do NOT have squinty eyes and a weird mouth, at least not Zellweger-weird. Do I? DO I???
Oh dear. It appears that I do. Excuse me while I go get drunk.
All smart-assedness aside (well, ok, not all, but most smart-assednes aside), what I actually found the most interesting was seeing not who showed up as the most "matchy" on each individual photo, but seeing who showed up repeatedly for photo after photo after photo, even if they weren't the top match. Those are the ones where I figure there may really be some small similarity of bone structure or something.
Some of the celebrities who showed up repeatedly for me, with anywhere from a 50% to 71% match each time, included:
With some of the people on that list I can pick out a feature or two here and there - nose, cheekbones, eyebrows, jawline - and see why the computer matched them to me a few times. With others, I have NO freakin' idea what it's seeing that I don't.
I'd mentioned Marie Trintignant in the first line. She's someone I'd never heard of before this. I guess I need to watch more French films. She only showed up as a result for one pic, but the computer was calling it a 70% match - my second highest of the day. I'm thinking jawline (sort of), cheekbones, and maybe nose.
Another thing I found interesting is that there have been a few celebrities that people have told me I remind them of in recent years and almost none of them showed up in my computer-generated results. Hhhhmmm....
Since I bet someone will ask, I've been told at various times that I reminded people in some small way of Marcia Cross, Katherine Heigl, and Drew Barrymore. Of those three, only Drew showed up on the 'puter searches - twice, both times at around a 45% match.
Ironically, of all the people mentioned on this page, Drew is the one I think I most resemble, although I'm not much more thrilled with that than with the Renee Z thing. Heh.
If any of you decide to play, I hope you'll tell me so in comments. I'd love to hear your results!
"Flashback"
I'm currently making plans to be out of style for a while. How about you?
Dear RSR Reader who has stopped by anytime in the past couple of days, Thank you for stopping by and commenting. I luuuuurves me some comments, so you made my day a little brighter. Hope I did the same for you. Y'all come back now, y'hear? Love, DebR PS - You're pretty!
What's giving you moments of bliss this month?
"Forming a Philosophy"
Me, various ages from three to twelve, all wearing red, all blowing out the candles on a cake. It's clickable if you want to see it larger. The lame-o cake cartoon is because not one single photo I have in all the years of all the birthdays - mine and others! - had a decent enough photo of the cake to enlarge it and mess with it in Photoshop. So I dug out my sketch pad and my Prismacolor pencils and drew one.
And yes this rather bizarre whatever-you-call-it is, in fact, my art for the day. I'm awaiting calls from top galleries as I type. Heh.
"Sunset Field"
For a Limited Time Only!! Special Bonus BEAD Feature! Call Now! Operators Are Standing By!
Ok, that whole thing about limited time and operators was a big fat lie. But just wanted to let you know that a friend of mine from a quilt list I'm on, Caty Porter, now has a website up and running called Caty Porter Beads. Caty creates one-of-a-kind lampwork beads and while she doesn't have a lot of photos posted yet (stay tuned!), what she has is gorgeous!! Yay Caty!
"Fallen"
A weirdly filtered shot from my recent woodsy hike. Enjoy!
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Is it completely pathetic that I get so excited about that the rare times it happens? Don't answer that.
Here's our Daily Dose of Art:
"Twisted"
Obviously this is a "Phun with Photoshop" dealie, but I like how it turned out. Here's the original photo if you want to see it in a new window. It's of some twisted metal roofing and barn lumber from a small, decaying barn addition that J tore down a while back.
Ok, time to hit publish and get off this thing. I have some serious hibernating to do.
Sweet dreams, everyone.
"Rusty Circles" (clickable if you want to see it larger in a new window)
I'm not totally sure what the rusty thing is except that it goes with J's tractor somehow. But hey, it's rusty and it has a pattern of circles on it, all of which act like little windows into what's beyond. I think it's way cool and plan to take some more photos of it at different times of day and from different directions while it's still sitting out there near the garage. Because I assume at some point J will be actually using it for, um...something tractory. Heh.
J.R.R. Tolkien: Lord of the Rings.
You are entertaining and imaginative, creating whole new worlds around yourself.
Well loved, you have a whole league of imitators, none of which is quite as profound as you are. Stories and songs give a spark of joy in the middle of your eternal battle with the forces of evil.
Which literature classic are you?
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And Last (but hopefully not least): Daily Dose of Art
"Raven Log" (see the shape of the bird?)
This is yet another photo from my woodsy walk the other day - Photoshopped, obviously. I made it "grainy" because I wanted a sort of surreal quality to the scene. Somehow in the strange recesses of my mind, it seemed to me to fit the theme of quiz. No, I can't tell you why. I often don't understand my brain either.
PS...
Just in case you think you're lucky enough for me to have dropped my AustenObsession, I just HAVE to mention that the release date for the new-version Pride & Prejudice DVD has been set for the 28th of February. HOO-rah!
"A Self-Portrait of a Self-Portrait" (you can see the drawing in more detail at the end of the post if you like)
And now for some blasts from the past:
Oil paint on primed paper, 1980
Graphite on newsprint, 1980
Magic marker on paper, 1982
Colored pencil on paper, 1983 or '84
Graphite on paper, 1986 or '87
Commercial cotton fabrics, cotton thread, colored pencil, 2005
(Added especially for Amy who asked in comments about fabric self-portraits)
Graphite on paper, 2006
One problem with doing these things by looking in a mirror instead of from a photo is that it's too hard to smile consistently when drawing myself from life, so I always try for a neutral expression and usually end up looking pissed off instead! Oh well.